Bloodshot, sleepwalk just to listen to dreams,
this is beautiful. The walls are sycamore green,
put my lips to the leaves. Convulsing for joy,
another lonely drink. I can feel my pulse when I breathe.
Naked on the carpet, I put my fingers to the felt
and smile. Lighter, afloat, 'I'm limber. I'm free.'
The cigarette reacts, to a light, it stings and it welts,
with the floor as its ashtray.
The lamp dances. I'm smiling, absorbing it's sashay,
I'm happy. Forgetting the torrent of past days.
Ignorant. Where's my lighter? I'm forgetting things.
Another shot. Romance me, iTunes. Yes, just let it sing.
Forget me my past. Give me some tonal escape.
I'm at home in the waste, of sonnets, in poems and tapes.
Vinyl, MP3's. Show me the way.
The rusty light is foreign. It shows through the blinds.
It's 11 a.m. Fuck you. You know I don't mind.
You work at eight. Ok. I'll just call in sick.
It's horrible, to work. Can you imagine sleeping in?
Can you? It's beautiful. All of it.
I work in front of a screen. Then I get home, in front of screen.
At work I think of what I'll jerk off to. Something clean.
A slavic woman, perfect tits. Working porn for the cash,
because she has no talent. Then I work towards a stash;
a piece of toilet paper, a sock, the end of a blanket.
This isn't life. I used to love. Now, I send sentences in fragments
over a webspace. Hoping to recapture the humanity I had.
It's horrible. Just horrible.